Why Did You Leave Me

Recently I lost my Wife Bonnie. On the way to her Celebration of Life, I wrote a poem that expressed my feelings at that point. I don’t know what God’s plans are for me; I just know I miss my sweetheart and feel as if a part of me has been ripped out.

Why Did You Leave Me
How do you say goodbye to someone who is so much a part of you that your heart finds it hard to beat, and your lungs demand answers before they allow you to breathe?
Why did you leave?
I repeat, why did you leave?
Was God upset because I loved you so much, and lived for your touch, and the sound of your voice?
He gave me a choice; He should rejoice that I learned to love so deeply.
Did he call you home to bring me closer to Him?
Had my love for you become sin?
Did He open heaven’s doors and welcome you in to save me from being locked out?
Forgive my confusion and doubt.
I want to shout thanks for the time we had, but it still hurts too bad.
It still hurts too bad.